this is an attempt to confess something to myself.
who i am is not who someone would see from looking at me.
from the outside im a normal guy, a gay guy, who likes guys.
im a bit manic, a little depressed, but always feeling very wrong.
there are moments when im alone, that i find ways. to feel like a queen.
and i feel so.... okay.
but how would my family react. how would my friends see me.
how would the world abuse me after this.
i want to be myself.
im trying so hard.
but for now im stuck inside this shell of a man.